boys, boys,boys.

So Id like to blog about my frustrations with the opposite sex.

This, is the longest Ive been single without having atleast a fling inbetween having a relationship and dating.

The dates ive been on have been terrible , you either get complete duds who lie about half their life in order to seem interesting. Or you get the whores who just want a lay and to never talk to you again.. all the while talking about wanting a relationship in their online dating profile.

So I give you, Online dating for dummies.
- DO NOT ask a girl to send you naked pictures, EVER. Wtf are you thinking?
- Dont open with lines like " how much does a polar bear weigh?.. enough to break the ice" its immoral for me to date or even speak to men with IQs of 5 year olds.
- Please dont post pictures of your abs, muscles flexed, shiny 67' mustang, muscles flexed and abs exposed on your 67' mustang...
- Dont send girls messages like " Greetings specimen" ... I fear for their safety.. tub full of kidneys anyone?
- 45year olds, dont message 20 year olds.. they already have a dad..
- Dont ask for help with your profile and writing it to pick up other girls, thats not only weird.. but almost insulting that youre just wanted for grammar correction. Spell check anyone?
- Dont message girls asking for a date and then never talk to them again, can you really get a feel for someone within an hour of hanging at your local Java squeeze? NO.
- lastly, Dont tell a girl you love them after the first few messages. Desperate much? get yourself a teddy bear, they'll love you back.

FYI. Guys, if a girl texts you something lengthy.. dont reply with one word.
if a girl texts you with something cute, dont write back with a huge segway and ignore it.
hurt feelings. not fun.

jeeez. get a clue males.

that is all.

stay gold.

Childhood.

And I'll stand here, staring at my feet
feeding the deafening silence the sounds it craves
the galloping wind envelops my soul
once again Im wanting to be home
the place where I once never had to worry about belonging
never had to worry about responsibility or growing up

They never told us growing up was so destructive
How I wish my only worry was a bruised knee and no TV
no little lies, no hurtful boys who cringe behind alibis
the little girl in me wants to sit and cry, as you tell me you cant be with me
why wont a kiss fix this? why wont a kiss fix this?

can we lay and watch the clouds shape
writing in chalk and wanting to skip
feeding our souls the taste of innocence, the sight of first love
the galloping wind envelops my soul
once again Im wanting to be home
the place where I once never had to worry about belonging
never had to worry about responsibility or growing up

They never told us growing up was so destructive
How I wish my only worry was a bruised knee and no TV
no little lies, no hurtful boys who cringe behind alibis
the little girl in me wants to sit and cry, as you tell me you cant be with me
why wont a kiss fix this? why wont a kiss fix this?

I'll just hold this light, I'll just hold this light
inside of me, I wont let it fade.. I wont let it die
I'll be ok.. it will be ok... Im ok....ok.

why do they say " sick as a dog??"

So today I spent going to the dr, twice. Getting massive ammounts of hives cause i had an alergic reaction to the meds... going back.. getting a needle for the hives, throwing up for 2 hours, sleeping, eatting soup and praying this goes away by Thursday.

All I have are DVD series of Greys Anatomy, Jake and my soup.
Im pretty content.
for now..

<3 love

This is life.

So, First of all. For respect out of what happened, he is ok and home resting and feeling better. thanks for the well wishes. <3


On another note, as most of you know before I started working I went through a really rough breakup. Not everyone knows what happened and for legal sake I wont defame anyone and name names. But the relationship was taking a turn for the very worse.


After a year of dating ( on/off) I broke up with my ex, he was unfaithful on numerous ocassions and knowing my past with my longest boyfriend of 3 years he knew how stressing it was that I trusted him fully. Sadly he cheated not once, not twice.. 4 times.


Hes now seeing the girl he cheated on me with ( one of them) I dont know how happy they are but theyre pretty satisfied that they both hurt me. Anyways, the relationship was more than abusive on an emotional level, it was physically abusive.


I spent the month after that contemplating suicide, on a deep deep level. It sounds emo and naive. But I felt there was no other way to get rid of the pain.


If anyone has him on their Facebook who claims to be my ' friend' you will unfriend me. Cause its not fair to me, to have to see that you have him on there. Youre condoning the fact he hurt me on such a major level, and as a friend you may say " omg I cant believe he did that hes an asshole" well then why are you still speaking to him? it hurts me knowing that. So do yourselves a favour. Get rid of him. He needs to know his actions werent ok.


On this note, if youve been in an abusive, controling situation. There is help out there. You have people you can talk to, even if its a friend. If you need any help from anyone, please ask. Cause youre never alone.


I dedicate this blog post to those bullied teens whos lives were taken so soon by their own hands, bullying is not ok. Help phones are available and they will never judge you. Abuse in any form is NEVER okay and dont condone it.


Kids help phone.ca
 Call 1 800 668-6868 or ask online.


be at peace with yourself.


V

and so it begins..

Ive decided on starting a blog, mostly because my favouritest person is also starting one. Jaimie. Shes perfect, and awesome. But she'll smack the ugly right off your smug face. Verbally of course. :)

I will be utilizing this blog for songs I write, poems, and anything I like to vent about. Most common topics will be.

Boys
Music
Family
Boys
Songs
Poems
Family
Music

you get it, right? ok.

to start. Id like to share a poemI wrote. I was listening to a lot of Brand New " devil and god" one of my favorite albums by them, by far. So without further adeu, here is Mindless Tree.

Mindless Tree

I will feed among theives as I watch them go
like a mindless tree I will grow and grow
pour the wine, the rum, the love out of me
like a mindless tree who cannot see
i will feed among wolves i will dance among the dead
pour the wine, the rum the love out of me ,like a mindless tree.